A final whine before bed
I get criticized for thinking I have to get through this whole thing on my own.
And yet, I left a voice mail for KO on Friday and still no call back.
And twice I called JE tonight to talk with her about this and she cut me off asking if she could call me back. The last time was 1 1/2 hours ago.
I know I’m not the center of the universe, or even of Minneapolis, but these are the two people who know what I’ve been going through, know that I’ve been agonizing over taking this step, know that I’ve been agonizing over these conversations that I’ve had tonight.
And right now it feels that I am alone. That there is no one that can be bothered to listen to me. That I am going to have to get through this whole thing on my own, because I’m the only one I can count on.
And I’m really really tired of it.
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A year ago (or longer) on This Journey…
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weak-end(s NOW) 2009
Weird Dreams #3 2008
I’m probably not doing it right 2007
Good space 2006
Step 1 finished: He’s got the papers 2005
Still Emotionally Absent 2005
wasting time on Monday 2005
