I posed the WIIFM question to my counselor today. He didn’t get it either. In an attempt to explain what I thought KO was getting at, I said, “I think what he reallys wants me to articulate is why do I think what I do is so important.” THAT, counselor says is a “Good question!”

I’m still blank on it however.

Counselor asks if I’d like his take on why I think it’s so important. (teeny tiny voice says…he’s feeding you info again…is he tired of you being here? Bigger voices says…shut-up.)

Counselor articulates:

1. You (meaning me) think that music is an important part of worshipping God. That it is core to what it means to be human and to worship. Regardless of the “style” it is important to be done well.

2. You (meaning me) want to gain approval and acceptance.

Yes!

As we talked more, I clarified that like a painter, I want to provide an experience and elicite a response from people. And as for #2, well, who doesn’t want that? (socio-paths and the “truly enlightened” like the Dahli Lhama)

Other important learnings from todays session:
1. I’m grieving (STILL) the divorce. The fact that it was finally filed in court on the 24th is only bringing that to the fore again.

2. Being disgusted with the state of my life HAS to be differentiated from being digusted with personal traits. The “state” is something that has to be re-built. The “traits” are who I am…not the situation I’m in.

3. Grieving the dissolution of my marriage has to be differentiated from loss of confidence and a feeling of not knowing “who” I am. The grief has to be lived through and cannot be “scheduled” to be done at a certain time. I can talk myself out of the loss of confidence part and return more quickly to myself.

4. I need to continue to build a stronger support network of friends but also need to realize and rely on the people that are already walking with me through this.

5. I can produce amazing quantities of snot and tears in 50 minutes.
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A year ago (or longer) on This Journey…

It’s not time for this 2007
O, Brother 2007
results and answers 2006
Summer School - blech! 2005

— — —
A year ago (or longer) on This Journey…

It’s not time for this 2007
O, Brother 2007
results and answers 2006
Summer School - blech! 2005

— — —
A year ago (or longer) on This Journey…

It’s not time for this 2007
O, Brother 2007
results and answers 2006
Summer School - blech! 2005

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