Friday and no relief in sight
In my reflection for my ISAIAH agitation table I mentioned that I have been surprised by how exhausting CPE has been. That the combination of having only a 25 hours a week to do my choir work and then having to spend 25 hours a week at the hospital (which we all know usually slops over to 30 hours a week for both quite easily) and having to take time with the emotions all the CPE stuff dredges up is really cutting into my “smelling the roses” time.
What I said was:
CPE is continuing to be a drain on my physical and emotional energy over and above the time required to be at the hospital. As a result, I feel like I am holding on for dear life just to make from day-to-day and week-to-week balancing my public work (SAPLC, CPE and ISAIAH) and my private life. I am finding that intentionally spending time on improving my private life is taking time priority when I have energy for something besides processing the day. Sometimes, sitting and processing the day’s events is all that I can manage at the end of a 10 hour day. ISAIAH work is taking the biggest hit because it’s the only place that has any “give.”
So today, I’m going to have to steal some hours from church office time to go and get shirts for the boys for our holiday pictures tonight. Then race home, make sure they shower and look presentable, shove some food in us and get to the photographer by 7pm.
Somehow, I’ve managed to fill tomorrow with a day long (ok, 9-3) seminar on the new hymnal. I’m pretty sure I’m going to bug out early. After all I could be running the damn seminar and only signed up in solidarity with the rest of the staff. If I spend the whole day there, it means no day off for over…(crap!) for over 3 weeks by the time next Saturday rolls around.
Doesn’t sound very balanced to me. How about you?
My agitation table has asked that I think about how I’m going to hold myself accountable for processing CPE during my “retreat” between Christmas and New Year’s Eve.
That’s a good one, as I’m not even really sure what they mean. Any ideas? Leave a comment.
Peace.
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A year ago (or longer) on This Journey…
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A year ago (or longer) on This Journey…
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A year ago (or longer) on This Journey…
December 31st, 2006 at 4:16 pm
It’s a mystery to me as well. But, I do hope you have a good time with the kids and you are able to have some time for yourself as well.
Fri Nov 10, 12:33:00 PM 2006