just blue
I was supposed to play a round of golf with GolfPro this morning, but I misunderstood which course. GolfPro and another of his students were at a course all the way across town from where I was. Ooops.
So I went to the driving range and then back to the coffee shop to work on what I could from there.
I’m feeling low. Not really sure why. Maybe it’s the situation with my brother finally sinking in. Maybe it’s the uncertainty of the fall what with no job on the horizon yet. Maybe it’s just lonely. I just feel like I could sit and stare into the distance for the whole day. But that it would so much better if I could lean on someone’s shoulder while I did.
I hate feeling like I’m slipping into a depression. I especially hate it when it happens in the summer. It’s so much easier to blame this on lack of sunlight. But when it’s a beautiful puffy-clouded day, what’s my excuse then? I really hope this is just ’sadness’ and not the beginning of another downward cycle.
So I’ll just keep putting one foot in front of the other. Checking things off my to-do list. This afternoon it includes picking up things for rehearsal, making phone calls and setting up appointments and taking a sandwich to DS1 at his double-header…on my way to rehearsal.
A year ago on This Journey, I didn’t write anything.
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June 4th, 2007 at 6:01 pm
I am feeling the same way.
I can’t think of anything more depressing that job hunting, especially after being ungainfully not employed for almost two years now. Those stupid motivational pictures say if you try hard you’ll succeed, but what do they know? They’re just a stupid poster hanging on a wall and were produced by some guy thirty years ago!
-P
June 4th, 2007 at 8:05 pm
This too shall pass, sister. Sucks to hear that old line, I’m sure… but it’s true.
Much goodness to you.