I feel like I’m at a loss here.

I am a little tired of focusing soooooo much on my own navel. I know. It’s hard to believe that one could get tired of such a fascinating subject and yet, here I am! Tired of it.

I’m a little tired of over-thinking the Mr. Hockey situation. It is what it is. Right now it’s good so why go looking for trouble?

I’m either royally pissed off at the darling sons (especially DS1 these days…if I hear “Just a sec! I’m in the middle of something on the X-box” one more time……) or they’re off on their own adventures which I know not much about (which is probably a good thing in the long run.)

Work is another place where I just don’t want to spend more energy than I have to. A large part of this is that I frankly don’t like what I’m doing all that much. It doesn’t feed my spirit even though I do well and people appreciate what I bring to the table. There’s too much dysfunction in the corporate game playing and to write about it gives it too much energy in my life.

And I am hesitant to begin to look again at the world and reflect on what I see. Politics, injustice, disease, poverty all are such huge hills to climb in order to stand at the top and shout out “Hey! Look at this! Pay attention! Remember! Act!”

I know I’ll go back there soon. Especially once the internship starts because that will be the place where I’ll spend most of my time.

But what is it that is niggling at the back of my mind right now? What do I want to spend energy on? It’s not that I wouldn’t or couldn’t. It’s just that every idea I come up with I discard with a shrug and a “meh.”

Is it really just the mid-winter blahs? (Which, thankfully aren’t the mid-winter blues or the mid-winter depressions due, I believe in no small part to my light-box?) Is this just my normal late November/early December blechs?

Probably.

And that means I should just be patient and wait it out. Any second now, something will come around the corner and burst through this grey leaden mist and I’ll expound eloquently on “Why we should all worm compost our kitchen scraps” or something.

But just because I’ve been around this part of the path before doesn’t mean that there’s not something to learn from this go around. So what is it?

Beats the hell out of me. Right now anyway. Of course, I’ll worry this question to death trying to figure out The Answer. Or at least An Answer.

In the meantime, I wish for some interesting things to think about. Some interesting things to write about or even some interesting thing to take a picture of.

Churlita seems to be involved in some internet cult  group that has a weekly photo assignment. Does anyone else know of some quality groups like that? Blogstarters or something? (maybe I should do a google on that.)

Because if not, I’m going to have to resort to the couple of “Write your Life Story for your Grandkids” guides on my bookshelf. And while that may be a good place to start, I’m not sure I want to go there since it smells remarkably like navel lint.
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A year ago (or longer) on This Journey…

golf party 2006

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A year ago (or longer) on This Journey…

golf party 2006

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A year ago (or longer) on This Journey…

golf party 2006

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