this might be something
I’m liking the handy little plug-in I have that adds links to the bottom of my posts from past years for the same date. Down there where it says “A year ago (or longer) on This Journey…”
Mostly I like it because it’s automatic and I don’t have to 1) remember to add it or 2) fuss around with getting the permalink and all that stuff.
The plug-in also adds a little list of upcoming posts on the dashboard and I’ll sometimes read through some of them if I don’t remember what I’m referencing in the title. (Note to those of you that expect to be a ‘popular’ blogger. Apparently, this cute title making? Not good for search engines and such. Tough patooties.)
Anywho.
So I’m reading through posts from this time last year and the year before and it’s beginning to dawn on me what could be bothering me.
I think it is the usual wet-blanket feeling of the holidays.
See, read this one here (I’ve Never, from 2005) and then this one (Light at the end of the tunnel from 2006.)
And reading those old posts made me realize that 1) I do usually feel something like this every year and 2) things are not going to be any different on the holidays this year.
I’m still in charge of “everything.” I’m trying too hard to please too many people. I’m trying to make a holiday that pleases other people and it doesn’t feel like anyone is trying to make a holiday to please me. (nope. not even Mr. Hockey. Although, it could be that in that arena I’m expecting too much too soon. Just saying.)
So. What am I going to do about it?
Last year I took a trip for a few days to a cabin from Christmas noon. This year I have the boys and I have this pesky job.
I’m wracking my brain trying to figure out what I am going to do so that I feel like someone (someone like me that is) is paying attention to what I want and need?
I’ll have to mull it over for a while I think.
What little things do you do just for you at this time of year?
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A year ago (or longer) on This Journey…
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Just a little help 2006
SciFi Classics 2005
Agoraphobic Cowboy 2005
weak below freezing 2005
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A year ago (or longer) on This Journey…
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Just a little help 2006
SciFi Classics 2005
Agoraphobic Cowboy 2005
weak below freezing 2005
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A year ago (or longer) on This Journey…
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Just a little help 2006
SciFi Classics 2005
Agoraphobic Cowboy 2005
weak below freezing 2005
December 5th, 2007 at 4:57 am
amazing how programmed we can be.
December 5th, 2007 at 11:23 am
My feelings about the holidays are incredibly similar. I worry so much about making things perfect for everyone else that I end up feeling stressed instead of enjoying the magic.
December 5th, 2007 at 1:30 pm
I usually spend a little on myself too this time of year as I am purchasing everyone elses gifts. I try had every year not to buy for myself but I inevitably do. I spent WAY TOO MUCH on myself this year.
That’s one thing I like about this blogging thing, You get to see in black and white ecactly your thoughts and feelings and experiences were at any given time. I think I’m going to check my archives now. Hmmmm……
December 5th, 2007 at 1:59 pm
I’ve become more selfish as I’ve aged, and because of that, I’m much more fun over the holidays. I’m doing the family thing on Christmas Eve and either Saturday or Sunday before that. I only buy gifts for kids and I do things for myself whenever I can so I have something to get excited about as well. My daughters are generally grateful for my selfishness.
December 6th, 2007 at 7:34 am
I give more. I love the feeling of giving. It makes me feel good. I would also get my hair done. I would buy little presents early for my kid and have him open them here and there. I spend more quality time with the kid, that makes me feel good. There’s a lot.