again
Morning. It’s not my favorite time of day. In fact, if given the chance to set my own schedule, I wouldn’t need to be anywhere until about 10 because I feel like the best sleep is between 5-8 am.
But I work and live in a world that doesn’t see it my way.
I’m up even earlier than I want to be this morning because I realized that I need to get my stuff together and get an expense report submitted or I’m going to loose several hundred dollars. When I don’t do expense reports regularly they become cumbersome and a chore. Of course, I hear that from people who have to file them every week too. Ah well. Human beings are peculiar, I guess.
I’d like to remind myself in a few weeks that the pity-party phase seems to have at least a small hormonal component. That doesn’t mean the root cause is false, only that it may be magnified during certain times. Re-read the section of Christain Northrup’s book and see if it’s not true. Somehow I need to deal with the root cause(s) because the pity-party is not only unpleasant, it engenders a round of self-loathing based on victim-y I-wanna-be-taken-care-of whining that is equally unpleasant as the original whining.
Admittedly, acknowledging those things doesn’t make them go away. Nor does it necessarily make it easier to weather the storm/phase when it happens.
I also want to admit to myself that the exercising really is making me feel better. So, do yourself a favor and keep dragging yourself down to the gym. Keep trying. And remember: Progress not perfection.
So, I’m waiting for the dryer and I’ll go do a cardio session before work today. Then the first thing I’ll do is an expense report and mail it off to the community’s office in Chicago.
Good grief, it’s early!
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A year ago (or longer) on This Journey…
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Countdown Tag 2007
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A year ago (or longer) on This Journey…
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Countdown Tag 2007
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A year ago (or longer) on This Journey…
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Countdown Tag 2007
May 5th, 2008 at 11:58 am
You sound like you’ve got a handle on it, though!
You’ve inspired me to exercise today. Thank goodness I don’t have to do an expense report right now, though. That might send me back to bed for a good nap.
May 5th, 2008 at 4:00 pm
That’s why I’m addicted to running. it almost always makes me feel better afterward. of course, sometimes I have to remind myself that it will while I’m doing it.
May 5th, 2008 at 5:36 pm
I love Monday mornings. I am a morning person and the beginning of the week is time to get going. I tend to fade by Thursday and Friday is sleep night for me and Renee.
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