Here’s another crummy post where I complain about how I’m too busy and tired and can’t be coherent or reflect on the meaning behind any of this. I’d skip it, I were you.

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I’m getting pretty fed up with a lot of stuff these days.

Politics. Hate-mongering. Fearl-mongering. Bad drivers. Corporate greed. Incompetent leadership at so many many levels in my life. People who don’t let me talk enough and people who don’t agree with me immediately upon hearing the brilliance I bestow upon them.

Just to name a few.

Mostly, I’m fed up with working so damn hard. Every day.

It was a crazy weekend that started on Friday. I had to attend a retreat this weekend. Which sounds like a great thing, right? Except I’m not an AIG executive, so what that means is that these stupid "retreats" are anything but relaxing. This one had all the elements to make me crazy, crabby and tired:

• The leader liked to listen to herself talk too much. About things we (the group) did not need or want to really talk about anymore. Stuff we are tired of dwelling on, frankly and would like to MOVE ON.
• Irritating fellow attendees - childish (not childlike) behaviors, not to mention just some weirdness.
• Another larger group at the same retreat center. A group made up of women. Many of whom smoked. Seriously. As in standing out on the porches until after midnight smoking and yakking outside open bedroom windows. And then (different ones, the same ones, doesn’t matter) again at 6:00 in the morning.
• Too many women in one place on a full moon and apparently more than 50% of us had bladder/kidney problems because by my count there were about 1,000,000 trips to the loo in the middle of the night.

I had to leave the retreat early Sunday morning (as in 6:30 a.m.) to get back to town in order to be at church. You see, I couldn’t miss this weekend because it was the day of the first big event I’d organized at the congregation and I needed to be there to remind everyone to attend that afternoon.

Then the actual event, which turned out marvelously. But it was exhausting.

And then the driving of the people back and missing the evaluation, but making it to the after party. I only stayed for a little supper and went home.

And I thought maybe, MAYBE I could get a little rest today. But no. Ever so much more drama at The Ugly Corporate Job. Someone else from our team gave notice. She’s going to give us a month. What I mean by that is, that she has so much process in her head it is going to take a month to document it all.

What’s that you ask? Who is going to take over those tasks and responsibilities?

Yeah. I don’t want to think too much about that because I’m pretty sure the answer is me. Without benefit of a raise no doubt.

I’m just so tired of running full out for so many days in a row. Something has got to give pretty soon or I’m sure I’ll be sick as a dog for my trip (in only 38 days.)

I’m going to take an ambien and go to bed. Hopefully I’ll be able to sleep the sleep of the exhausted and not toss and turn the sleep of the stressed.

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A year ago (or longer) on This Journey…

unsettled and jumpy, but why? 2007
Has anyone else noticed? 2007
There is a very good reason… 2006
Friday the 13th 2006

— — —
A year ago (or longer) on This Journey…

unsettled and jumpy, but why? 2007
Has anyone else noticed? 2007
There is a very good reason… 2006
Friday the 13th 2006

— — —
A year ago (or longer) on This Journey…

unsettled and jumpy, but why? 2007
Has anyone else noticed? 2007
There is a very good reason… 2006
Friday the 13th 2006

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