This Journey

Thoughts, rants, prayers, sermons I'll never give and other stuff gathered as I make my way through this life.

So long 2012!

It would be really easy to write a very long post about how much this year needs to be done and gone and over. How much we need – I need - a fresh start and a new page. But that would only be part of the story. As much as 2012 has been a challenge on several levels – filled with so many disappointments and hurdles – it was also filled with so many blessings

I want to list a few of the things for which I’m grateful for this year. As usual, these are in no particular order.

  • Everyone at Chez Journey is in mostly really good health. We haven’t had any medical calamities and have even resisted most of the colds and crap that get passed around.
  • I have been able to spend an entire year on a grand experiment of launching a coaching and consulting business. While it didn’t take off like I thought it would, we haven’t gone into foreclosure or deep debt because of it.
  • Throughout the year I’ve had wonderful opportunities to play music with people.
  • G and I took a wonderful and affirming trip to Holden Village where I was able to serve as Village Musician (one of my favorite things to do — there or anywhere else.)
  • I was able to deepen friendships with several amazing women this year.
  • The opportunity to enter into a spiritual direction relationship with a wonderful director – a woman I admire and have come to rely on. Even though I started that process thinking things would turn out much differently this year than they have, the establishment of that relationship provided a lifeline when things didn’t go as hoped.
  • I went to Guatemala. All those sites, sounds, smells and tastes. All those pictures to help remember all those new friends.
  • I am well rested and ready – eager even! – to get back to full-time work. I treasure the chance to daydream and kick-back; to read and knit and have long lunches (and happy hours) with friends. But I’m ready to balance that now with more active day-to-day life.
  • This past month I’ve become enormously grateful for the times I’ve spent spiraling down to the bottom of the pit. I know that sounds odd, but this last month that experience has given me the perspective and compassion to really help out a friend who is visiting the deepest part of the pit for the first time. Maybe it’s a bit like AA, where your sponsor has to have been an addict to really be your sponsor. I am so grateful to be able to help this dear friend by sharing parts of my experience so that she knows that she’s not the only one who has been in this mysterious, oppressive, despairing place but that there is life afterwards. Resurrection doesn’t just happen after death and isn’t just accomplished by theological means in this life – although there are theological interpretations that can be applied. I am grateful to support her in getting the medical and mental help she needs to begin to heal.
  • I have few words to express how grateful I am that G is traveling with me through this year. I think his presence in my life is one of the biggest blessings I’ll ever experience.

What’s on your list of things you want to remember fondly from 2012?  If you are looking back, put a link in the comments.

Author: Not Fainthearted

A paradox wrapped in an enigma playing the accordion. I'm a sinner-saint, child of God working at the cross-roads of church and world. A Deaconess called to connect people living near the center with people on the edge and to help your life sing (literally and figuratively) while doing it. People don't always get the deaconess part. Could be the swearing, the corporate job, or the wine.

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